Cried quite badly today when i received your whatsapp today, didn’t expect myself to cry so badly i had to isolate myself so as to allow myself to just wallow in self pity. Didn’t wanna face up to anything, didn’t want to know what was going to happen next, i just wanted to cry. Never felt like that for a really really long time. I was so scared because i was just so upset but i didn’t know why. Can someone tell me why do i always have to upset you, why do i always have to choose the most fucked up time to do the most fucked up stuff, why can’t everything just be smooth sailing, why can’t i just be together with the one i love, why do i have to go through so many obstacles that really kick me in the heart when i know I might lose her, why can’t god just grant me happiness with her, why why why. Is it really that hard to let Zoe Poh finally be with the one she really loves so much, can someone tell me why. Tears are coming, i can feel it. I can’t take this, can you just come back to my side.
Crumbling.
Do not water the seed of discontent
Twinkling lights scattered out across the dark velvet sky
Breeze came by & dried her eyes
As she held her breath & hear each beat; her heart sank deeper
Irresolute thoughts started swarming her mind as she whimpers
“Why oh why?”
Vacillating truth ached her watchful heart
“Should we continue or shall we part?”
It crossed beyond what her heart could endure,
So let it this time be a venture.
